I'm going to be taking a leave of absence, not definite in length but approximately lasting a week to two, or less, depending on how long it takes to blow over. I will be on Garrys Mod from time to time but I won't be very active on the discord or on the server during this time.
Explanation: For those of you who don't know, I suffer from manic depression(which comes in periods or waves) and have since for a lot of my life. In the recent it's been because of some personal relationships, toxic thoughts and assumptions, and stress(some caused by being on the server too much). These last few days have kept me pretty down to the point of threatening suicide, which I have done before, except this time I am seeking proper help. While I have shared with some of you my occasional inabilities to cope with life as I see it, I would never make a deal out of sharing these issues publicly because of the insane memework this community strives for. So, as a result, try not to pine over this post because I want to punch my ticket early some days; The simplest thing you can do is recognize that I can't be active on Darkstorm right now, and give me a little space.
No, I am not suicidal because of Darkstorm(The reasons are personal and I would rather not share them publicly). Infact, I actually go to Darkstorm to take my mind off of the dark thoughts that constantly emerge, but they've worn on me to a point of exhaustion where being on Darkstorm is no longer fun nor distracting from those thoughts at this time; Thus, I feel as though I need to take some time off. I'd appreciate it if you left my channel in the discord alone for now, and while I would also really appreciate it if you didn't message me on steam or discord, if you feel like I absolutely and must come on to solve an issue, I would be more than willing to help. I will not always be able to reply to these (hopefully rare) requests with swiftness as I tend to.
I trust that the other portions of the staff team will staff when I'm not there. Please show them some love, we all have lives and staffing jobs on Darkstorm are as stressful as any.
Lastly, don't go blaming yourselves for anything I do, have done, or may do forwards. I really do appreciate this community and I don't think I could ever hold anything against it.
